29 October 2010 ( My Bad Style)

Thank God that give me the strength to voice out... This few day i really have a heart break feeling very strong on some problem... How to answer some question that i really dun know how to explain to a 5 year old kid... Is the whole changing or over some other changes that now a days kids have a very mature thinking... By the way finally i have walk out from the pain & start explaining everything to my family... Coz they been very worry about me... But different people have different thinking or is that I'm really not close to my family until now... Coz when i stop schooling i been working & enjoying my night life even when i started my own family i have also been having the same life... When i reach home normally is very late sometime when i reach home my family have already sleep, I will bath & stay in my room to play my com or sleep like a pig... Coz i am that kind of lazy people which dun really like shopping or etc expect sleeping... Until this year(June) i have becoming a real housewife that always stay at home with my family & kids... My family started to have different thinking that what really happen to me for this few days??? But my style is when i feeling down i will normally shut myself up or lock in the room that with loud music & take a nap to cool myself down at least a few day until i wish to voice out or not no people will understand that what really happen to me... Hope that my family can understand me coz this style have been following me for many years... I will ensure that i will try my very best to change my style, coz this style make my family hard to accept... Maybe I am really that kind of person which let people feeling hard to get close to me... Coz most of my friend told me that, when they started to know me i give a very strong feeling that i was that kind of person which dun let people to enter my whole or something that hard to get along with (When i did not joke, say a single sentences or when i did not smile)... Even my 10 year plus (Primary School Sister) Sharon & Cheryl also dun really know what happen to me... Just know that when my face turn Black, both of them will keep silent & will ask the rest which does not know me well to stop talking or saying nonsense to me... When my face turn black i will silent all the way until i cool myself down... I notice that my family really dun understand me for this few days especially my Mummy... She been thinking a lot of different or wrong idea that my mind is thinking about... So by the way now everything have settle so this blogger just hope that my family can understand my style more...