1'st Of October 2010

I getting frustrated easily again... (What happening to me) I HATE THIS FEELING ~ HOW COME IT COMING BACK AGAIN... First of the month October ~ I really gone crazy with this kind of feeling... Maybe is all about M****y or some other things, i thought that i can start to save but end up... Hai... Zzz... And the person always work late even sun also have to work... I know that now we really need M****y but i really hate it... I hope for a family day or can come back early to pei me... But no choice my Parent need M****y & our household expenses is too high... Hope that i can go find job but no people support me coz of my temper & my kids... Really dun know how to survive when we get old no saving no nth... Hope that my family can faster get over it... So i dun need to worry... My kids is getting more & more worse, both of them lazy to study plus i thought that when they grow bigger problem will slowly get lesser... But end up they keep on quarrel & fight... When can they stop these problem for me... Kids sometime can be cute & sweet to me but there are also in the other way... Hope that God can teach me how to control my temper, how to teach them... By the way lucky that i still have cute family member... Sometime i thought that like my M say i can keep some money in case that i need or my family need i can take out... But end up also empty... My M also cannot know that i got M****y or she will keep on take from me... But if i dun take out also cannot... Really dun know how??? I wish to talk to Mei but no time & chance so maybe have to wait until 9th of October... Hope everything can goes well... Mei if you saw my blogger, please dun let M know all about it...